BCC 3*10*1999

here, i want u to read this.  i wrote it back on
Nov.  a nice little
piece about about, well, read it.  u'll get the
picture:

Lost

I found out the cruelty of man
Heard the cry of mankind
When you abandoned me, I saw it
I know I wasn't your fault

It's hard to watch you now
The pain you put yourself through
The torture, suffering
You're hopeless now

If you could open up,
Let us see
See your poisoned soul
In agony.

What is it that you want? what is it that you
need?
You never told me.  Helpless, I watch you bleed

I cannot hear your cry
Cannot see your try
Call what you will
Your soul will never be still

I loved you
cared about you
You threw it away
Look at me now, as only the scars remain

I will live again
Be as one again
My world is dark to you
Until you kill me too

The bitterness
the bereavement
Broken bits of glass
the shards litter my pool of blood



"Love's golden arrow
at her should have fled
And not Death's ebon dart
should strike her Dead"

The pain visits often
Burning memories torture my brain
bury me in sorrow
Leave, forget me

Place upon my head
The Crown of Sympathy
Wash me in your river of sorrow
and play in fields of pain

You cannot end what has begun
The fight for yourself will never end
A war for within
and the battle from without

I wish not for what has become of you
What a shame, such a sad, sad site
To watch your demise
As your world sinks out of view

I, suppose I lied to myself
spoke of the those things untrue
I can't bare to watch you die like this
I have watched the snow all day.
Falling.  It never lets up.  All day falling.
I lifted my head and cried aloud,: "...why this
life?"

You trampled us down
In your river of death
We watched you fall,
From your kingdom of pain

Your misery in majesty
The anguish unholy
You'll suffer for your crime
the death of mankind


You fell to your death
that you brought upon yourself
In sorrow and pity, I cried for you
Held by grief, I'm killing me

My tears fall, for the tragedy
for grace unhearing, for sorrow
though they fall not for you, not what is, but
For what should have been

Your endless journey
That never begun
Ever the downward spiral
eternal descent, pain like no other

Your desertion left me
Swimming in fields of blood
Though you care not to rescue me
in your pain I will reside

You grab at nothing
the nothing that you left
your pain, should go on forever
the pain of eternal suffering

Should my life become you
Let it be so that you suffer
torment of our souls
in misery we will die
   b.c.c.  11/98