10/2/1998

which part of your page did i find 'dark' you
ask?  oh, the poems, the
pictures, the mentally disturbing thoughts, etc..
sounds like u got a
busy life.  try this on for size: school, two (2)
soon to be three (3)
jobs making roughly $24.50 hourly combined, so
i'm doing pretty good $$$
wise.  as well as juggling in working on a solo
project to keep myself
sane while wait for my bassist to get all the
drum trax down for the
demo AND then, then AFTER the demo is done do we
start rehreasals.  so
i'm busy too.  i'm not trying to compete w/ u as
to who has the busiest
life but that's post H.S. for u.
   i gave up on the scen of having a gf some #
of mos. ago and haven't
really gone back, basically due to (for lack of a
better term) lack of
eligible people.  plus i doesn't help that i
haven't been looking that
much either.  i've got my music, i've got work
and school, i don't need
anything else right now.  tho granted that having
a gf would b nice i
just don't need one.
   i'm also still coping w/ the loss of a
"loved one" too.  i found
out that my ex-gf (after she abandoned me) was
drugged and raped at a
party in july and IS KEEPING THE BABY.  i still
care about her, but
there's nothing i can do or say that will make
her change her mind.
well, i'm running out things to say so write me
back 'k?  later

dig,
Brent

ps: Had I not know
  that I was dead
  already
  I would have mourned
  my loss of life  

From sarahnaomi@yahoo.com Thu Oct  1 14:21:27
1998
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Hey man... I'm doing better.  I think I'm just
having a hard time with well, LIFE in general... Which part of
my page did you find
"dark?"
Did I tell you about my car? I leased a Chevy Prizm
(what used to be a Geo model)... I was really
stupid last tuesday...
I saw my boyfriend that night & he basically told
me everything I ever
wanted to hear from a guy & inside I really
didn't care that much.
Then I drove down the hill to buy cigarettes,
something I told him
that I wouldn't do as long as he didn't
drink... SO he's been
good on his promise not to drink while I ended up
telling him last
night on the phone that I got cigs....  i really
feel a whole bunch of
stuff right now and if this is hitting bottom,
then i guess I'm almost
there...

I don't really understand what's going on with
me, except that I'm
having a really hard time balancing work & school
& having a
boyfriend.  My soph. year in High school I was
dating a guy in college
who is still basically a workaholic.  What I
learned from him is that
I can't let my boyfriend have a small part of my
life, i.e. be at the
end of a list of priorities in my life.
I've just been moving really fast as far as life
goes, I mean, a
technician @ work is transferring, another
cashier's out on
disability, and i feel so guilty when there's
"holes" in the
schedule... So I just have been making the
mistake lately of
volunteering for extra hours so instead of 24
I'll be working a couple
extra shifts this month.


I really don't want to loose it but I think I am.
Thanks for caring, Sarah
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